Meh.

I think i might have an eating disorder.
I've took online tests and they say i'm at a high risk of it but idk.

I lie to myself and say that i eat loads when really i'm just drinking tea when i get hungry to make up for it.
I normally have one meal a day, today it was breakfast. I don't really feel like eating anything else.
But the thing is, i want to put on weight. I hate being this ill and this skinny..
But i just can't eat, the thought of it and actually eating makes me feel so so sick. Sometimes i'll have massive binging sessions and then i'll not eat for days.

My mum has definitely noticed but i keep trying to trick her into thinking i'm eating too and i don't know why.
I don't know what i'm doing.
I don't know what to do.