9th June.

I'm really pissed at myself for being so anti-social.
My best friend stayed over last night and i literally had nothing to say.
She was feeling down and i didn't know what to do to help that so i just sort of gave up and hoped pizza would be enough.
I'm normally good with these things.

Just, argh, idk. I just feel really fed up atm because i'm in a sort of 'limbo'.
A month away i may be moving down to Lincoln.
But what do i do until then? I can't buy house things because i'll be renting out a friends spare room until i can legally rent at 18...
I can't just go down and be like YOOO. Because i have nowhere to stay.
I just sit here and... Sit.
I don't know what to do with myself.
I mindlessly blog on tumblr for hours and half of the time i don't even register what i'm reblogging, i just notice a good photo/text post at the time and reblog it, and forget about it two seconds later, i'm surprised i don't multiply reblog the same things over and over again.
I keep in contact with all my Lincoln friends obviously, but it's just not the same as seeing them in real life.
It's hard to keep tabs on everything and know how they all are and stuff when they're all so busy and don't have much time to talk online, whereas i could bump into them in person and have a 10 minute chat. It's just not thar simple.
It's also hard to keep Claudia happy, i don't know how she's feeling about our situation most of the time and i don't dare ask incase i hear something i don't want to, sigh.
I just want her to be happy.. But happy with me.. Which is cheesey as fuck but i don't even care anymore. I like her. I think she likes me. But it won't work out until i actually get down there and we can have met more than one time and i can prove to her i'm not going to leave unless she wants me to.

Ergh idk what this post even is i just needed to rant.
Pretty much feel like a poo friend and a poo person and just poo in general and i want to sleep.

Ps. Taking my medication with cider last night was NOT a good idea. Never do that again Sam you silly thing.